I Didn't Like The Way You Were, I Had To Make You Mine

I'm going to broach a subject here that apparently other women have experienced and they stay hidden in the shadows. Quiet and thinking they are alone in their suffering. But ladies, you are not. There are others that go through what you do. There are others, like myself, that also have boob zits.

Yes. There. My boob zits are back. And I'm talking about them. Again. Because apparently I just really don't care if I ever have a date again in my life time. Otherwise I'd order some ProActiv stat! Slather it on my boobicle area and hope that nobody notices them ever. But instead? NO! Let's talk about it.

In my quest to find the perfect birth control for me, I'd suffered through a lot of crap. Uncontrollable crying. Horrible cramps. Crime scene tape being put around my shower. Back zits. Face zits. Increased appetite. Irrational anger. Feeling weird in my own body. Leg pains. Weird periods. Increased periods. Boob zits!

I'm on my first rotation of a different pill and I thought that we'd finally done it! We'd finally found the pill that was going to allow me to be my version of normal for the entire month without cramps and emotional crying and all that. I've been fairly even keel recently. No emotional crying. No irrational anger. But then the boob zits reappeared.

Zits, people. On my boobs! Who wants zits on their boobs?!?!?! I mean...fine. Who really wants zits anywhere. On the face is bad. Who wants to see zits all over their face? Didn't we all already go through high school? And for some reason back zits just skeeve me the hell out. I feel disgusting knowing they exist. So, I don't want them there. But...my boobs? That doesn't seem right either. They're not great, but they are mine. And they have some positives. Like, they had nice skin on them. No marks. No stretch marks. A few freckles here and there. A nice side mole. And more importantly - no zits! They're fairly symmetrical and pretty much in the same spot they've always been, thank you very much. They do their job well. And now they're being marred by zits. This is upsetting to me.

But...if this pill is doing the job in all the other areas...are some boob zits a small price to pay to finally be back to normal and not have horrible cramps in the process?

I could use this as an example of how nothing in my life is ever perfect. Things can be super terrific but there's always that one thing...that one thing making it almost perfect, but never quite it. But I won't get deep here. Even though I could...